the writer Hi, my name is AJ Junior. Just AJ will do. I am a skinny individual with the heart of a lion and wittines of a mouse. I have THE most loving fiancee EVER! I love making friends, so why not facebook me and be my friend. =) current play Class 95FM sellout gossips ![]() dearest beloved friends archives September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 today's visits |
Sunday, February 7, 2010 @ 4:01 PM
My Lady Almost a week has passed. Hmmm so many things has happened. Happy sad confusion doubts. You named it. It seems like emotions really likes playing around with me. I don't know why. Probably because I am the sort of person who gives more than he takes. Yeahh. Maybe. At times, I don't think about myself and just proceed with actions that my heart told me to do. And one thing that my heart always says is to think about the smiles of others. Cause you made other smile, one day others or maybe just one, will make me smile. I've been stucked with this personality. Friends who have known me more than a decade like, Andi, Ummar and Nas...they know what I am talking about. I've been having images during my sleep. They all put up a story. Of a girl and me...destined to be with one another. But that destiny was bounded and decorated with thorns, landmines, traps and challenges that tested every ounce of your sanity beliefs and will to survive. And in this dream, she along with me...conquered our fears and dare to dream. I am in a relationship where the curve in a graph is immensely steep but somehow, I am finding the strength from somewhere to simply continue climbing. I don't know how but I am doing it. Really. On certain girls, I will probably have packed up my bags and leave...but not this one. I would really love to share but...I want to keep things discreet. She wants it to be, so do I. We don't like attention focused on us. It's suffocating. Wouldn't it be nice to simply be in a place where no one knows you? Or when we walked on streets, you don't get text messages saying "I saw you with....". It is nice that people knows you but at times....well you know what I meant. I get very protective over my girl. I can't help it. That's the way I have and always will be. When guys swooped around her like vultures, I would be like this jaguar who is protecting his prey. And when I say prey, I am not referring to her in a bad way ok. A jaguar protects his prey. So I am like this protector. It's a natural order that jealousy feeling starts to creep in. Unknowingly it will forced your hand into doing something utterly ridiculous or stupid. And because of that action, the jag might lose the prey to the swooning vultures. I'm hoping that my past experience can teach me to be a better person, boyfriend and not be a typical one. Insyallah. I have faith and trust in her. =) It's raining heavily and I think I prolly sleep in. Take a nap and maybe go out for awhile. I don't know. Honey gotta work and I get bored when she is working and I am not doing anything. Geeez! Ouh well, we'll see. Have an awesome Sunday peepos!! xoxoxo&XO, AJ Thank you so much for reading you all. And since you are already down here, PLEASE VOTE for who do you prefer to listen to for next month. Aite?? Mucho loves! |