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Hi, my name is AJ Junior. Just AJ will do. I am a skinny individual with the heart of a lion and wittines of a mouse. I have THE most loving fiancee EVER! I love making friends, so why not facebook me and be my friend. =)



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At times, I don't need these things anymore, so I am selling them off at reasonable prices. =)


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Thursday, January 7, 2010 @ 12:01 AM
Forgotten

Goshh...I just realised how much I truly missed showering someone with all the love that I can afford to give. I really mean that. I miss that warm fuzzy feeling inside of me. How I wish GOD can come down and personally tell me where have I gone wrong to deserve my bitter loneliness. I really want to request for an explaination. Where is the justice??

A guy who drinks, womanise, doesn't do solat; basically a bad example of a muslim, can have the most perfect of woman in his arm to be called wife, girlfriend or whatever. And then there's me. I mean, I am not the best example of a muslim of course, but I do my solat and avoid drinks which is afterall HARAM. So here I am, standing alone. Not having someone, is not fun ok. Put yourself in my position where you have not feel the passion of love for almost 4 years.

So, should I start drinking and committing sins to get myself love? Does it work that way? Maybe women doesn't love a religious man. Or doesn't love a man who does not commit sins at the very least? Maybe they want those dangerous, bad boys huh. Cause bad boys brings in the fun and edgy-ness of life. True??

If this goes on, I'll prolly lose my faith. Subhanallah. I will try my best to be strong. But I am human, a soul who like others, need that human touch. I wish I was a robot, where I can't feel. But too bad. When ALLAH created me, HE might have forgotten that I was one of his human creation. And thus, forgetting my partner. That's the only thing I can think of.

ALL I ASK FOR IS TO LOVE. THAT'S ALL. I don't mind staying in a one room flat and eat porridge everyday. Haaaa....it is one of those nights...

xoxo,
AJ


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