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the writer  Hi, my name is AJ Junior. Just AJ will do. I am a skinny individual with the heart of a lion and wittines of a mouse. I have THE most loving fiancee EVER! I love making friends, so why not facebook me and be my friend. =) current play Class 95FM sellout gossips  dearest beloved friends archives September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 today's visits |
Friday, January 29, 2010 @ 3:40 AM
Empty Night Wow. Friday has already dawned upon us I see. Yikes! It is soooo damn fast and I guess, alot of things has indeed happen. In every sense. Be it personal, family, work...there's a whole lot of big chances going around. It is as though everyone is rushing to nice spots to make themselves noticed, heard. Honestly, I really have no idea on what to blog about. I am just being here simply because I do not want to leave gaps in between my entries. Gahhhh. It's just me. One of those things which I do not like to do. I don't like messy places ok. It gets me very annoyed! I repeat....VERY! Hmph! I am on leave on Friday. And I clearly do not have any idea on how to spend it. Or with who to spend it with. I am thinking of going out straight after Jumaat Prayers, and go for some shooting and soul searching. Ya know...like just me walking around with my bagpack and simply love every moment of it. Hmmm I think I should. Maybe I should go to Bencoolen or Al-Falah mosque. Both in the town area. Heh. I'll prolly walk around ION then. I'm just planning these stuffs. Who knows, I might be darn lazy tomorrow eh. LOL! The night wind is soooo still. The leaves are barely moving. Gosh...it is really a blank empty night, apart from the brightly lit moon that is. Hmm...it kinda like describe my mind/thoughts. Blank but there's one bright spot in it. I'll leave for you my friends to go figure who or what the bright spot is. Till then, have a good Friday and good night everybody! xoxo&XO, AJ Thank you so much for reading you all. And since you are already down here, PLEASE VOTE for who do you prefer to listen to for next month. Aite?? Mucho loves! Monday, January 25, 2010 @ 10:19 PM
Weird Day For some reasons, I feel the sudden need to update. I do not like to have big gaps in between my entries. If possible, I would want to update everyday. Now, that would be kinda imposibble. As most of my nights now, I spent them on webcam with BLV. Our schedules always hit a bump, and meeting up is a hard thing, unless something impromptu happen, so thank you to the webcam, I feel close to her as though she's right here with me. Hee. There's a slight difference in things as of late. In terms of love, big big change. But am I ready to go public? Probably not. The lady reminded me to go slow. So slow it shall be. But I just don't like snails. They have long eyes, slimy and they mew. Hmmm, now that is gary right? From spongebob. Ouhwell, whatever it is...I'll settle for as slow as a tortoise. Much cuter. I won't spill anymore details about this whole saga. I am to damn creative with words that people might think we are engaged. Hmph! =P It has been sort of an interesting day today. Just two people in office, rest of them took leave, or MC. Then there is ME, who did NOT eat ANYTHING thru the day. I just drank coffee. No wonder I felt cold, even with the jacket on. Yikes!! Don't ask me whyyyyy I did not had lunch or breakfast. Seems to me that my appetite went AWOL on me, just like that. I don't control these things you know. Nyehhh. Thought of having half the day off, but I ended up doing work and by the time I finished...it is way past lunchtime. 4PM!! Bahhhhh, might as well I just stay thru the day huh. And then comes the part where I stayed in office, with the lights switched off and simply do my work past office hours till 8pm. Geez. Most probably I am doing things, running on adrenalin; trying to take my mind off things. And then come the traumatise part. Beloved Ryn scolded me for not eating and she even threatened not to talk to me ever again. Booohoooo. Be gentle on me cann?? I just don't know what has gone into me today. Didn't talk much, does work, less jalan2 and yes, no food! Not a grain of rice. Sheeesh! On the way home in the train....it was at lakeside if I am not mistaken. I woke up from my train nap. Tired of staring at the CRT monitor okaaaayy! The association jolly well gets an LCD soon or they might end up paying for my lasik! HMPHH! So yeah...when I opened my eyes, this girl was staring at me. Not the glance kind, but literally looking. I was wooooahhh okay what did I do when I was asleep?? Looked down, looked up..STILL LOOKING! I wanted to call Ryn, but she's working. Gahhhh. I just godeh2 mp3... At boon lay interchange, I wanted to go to toilet but need to pay 20c! WHATT! So I walked to Jurong Point to pee and then came back to lineup for bus number 181 and it has transformed into a snake. My goooodness! Stood in the bus and everytime there's a bus stop, a fat person budge thru making their way to the exit. Along the way, I got pushed. Mamaaaaa! Can you people lose weight?? You one people space to walk is equal to TWO of me sia. Grrrr! Under me block, I had pressed the lift button..and I can't believed that I waited and stare at both lift for more than 5 seconds. Cause both of the doors were opened and I am in a dilemma to choose which lift I should take. WHAT THE HELL?! I seriously need to eat. Or I'll lose someone precious. And I want popeye tomorrow. Don't argue with me. Nighties world! xoxo&XO, AJ Thank you so much for reading you all. And since you are already down here, PLEASE VOTE for who do you prefer to listen to for next month. Aite?? Mucho loves! Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 9:52 PM
Drama There has plenty of drama being played behind the scene in this life of mine. Be it positive or negative, I am really trying HARD to keep myself moving forward and simply take everything (especially the negative ones) within my stride. As much as it is a natural process where one will brood over a spilled milk, there really is nothing left to ponder about. Bad things happens so that the good things can take over. True? Again, I stressed out the mindset of humans. It is only natural that one requires an ample time to get over something bad or traumatising. An example of such happenings would be death, breakup etc. No one in the right frame of mind can simply packs a bag and simply move forward in the event of huge magnitude. No way man. I found myself in a moment where life simply STOPS at a dead end. Feels like this is it. There's no more road to travel, nothing left. I'm just here and yeahhh. Clueless. No sense of direction, no signs of light, nothing. This was when I just broke up with a girl, 4 years ago. It took me months and almost close to a year to finally find courage to move into unknown territory once more. And to tell you frankly, ain't easy. Everything was bitter, seems alien and very much new. Lucky enough along the way, I met some nice people whom today, I am very proud to call friends. True to the fact that my facebook stated I have over 800 friends but c'monnnn. I don't have that many ok. Only a handful of them I call friends, really. People like Nas, Andi, Ummar and Lily, are 4 of the pioneer batch of friends whom I call family. The new ones whom I made along the way, friends like Shazlyn, SuMin, Fiza, Fahmy & Aidil have been the one who lights up this life. Brilliant bunch. And then I found her. I would not mention yet the name. Probably some of you know, some may not. But insyallah, if ALLAH is willing to let us be together, we will. It is only with ALLAH's permission and blessing that we can and will find one another. For now, we will see where this lead us to. I pray for only the best. Hee. Hmmm...I think I need to go thru' pictures. I am selecting the best ones for my upcoming portfolio. Yeahhh. Can't wait. Hehe! Have a good night sleep peepos! Stay classy thru and thru alrite! xoxoxo, AJ Thank you so much for reading you all. And since you are already down here, PLEASE VOTE for who do you prefer to listen to for next month. Aite?? Mucho loves! Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 11:07 AM
Limelight Shadow It is almost a week without me touching this page of mine. I tend to simply breakaway from it when I really got nothing to talk about. Even if I do, I tend to keep it within myself you know. Like just me and maybe another someone who knows. Public declaration? Nahhh. My life has always been in the shadows. Actually, I used to crave for the limelight. To get noticed, to be popular, so that everywhere I go people will go "Hey that's AJ Junior!!". But now? I...don't know. I feel like I don't need that anymore. It is just plain boring ok to have eyes following you. Imagine if you wanna dig your nose? Hahahahha! It is very disturbing. If EVER, I wanna be popular, let it be for my passion. Photography. Like "Hey that is AJ Junior. He takes awesome photos.", I would very much settle for this. No need for the glitz and glamour. Can let my babygirl have that. Hee. Ouh, I will be doing a photoshoot with a friend. She asked me to be her right hand man for her friend's engagement ceremony. I can't wait for that. Certainly I am grabbing every chance of maximising my portfolio. Insyallah by February latest March, I'll have my own thing up and running. =) Well, I'm meeting Miss Nur Asyiqin later at 12. Better prepare. See ya!! Have an awesome Sattie peeps! Stay classy! xoxoxo, AJ Thank you so much for reading you all. And since you are already down here, PLEASE VOTE for who do you prefer to listen to for next month. Aite?? Mucho loves! Monday, January 11, 2010 @ 8:23 PM
Boss's Appreciation It has been 4 days. What's new? Apart from me getting thanked personally from the individual from the top of the organisation, nothing much has been worth writing. I am trying not to be your typical boy next door who types what he do, what he eats, what time he left work, who he loves and so on. These were the topics I used to very much talked about, but I find it ridiculous nowadays. Who the hell care anyway....right? My main point and question for today would be, "Do bosses only acknowledge one's work only after they see it?" Yeahh that is it. It is not like I don't like getting praises. It's just that...it bugs me ya know. To NEED to see the end product and start the appreciation. Most of you might have just said, "DUHHHH! Unless we perform well, then come the acknowledgement." I beg to differ. As bosses, I believe that we must constantly remind our staff about the work that they are doin. Be it good or bad, we should acknowledge it. It is not about the name that the person gets ya see. We would like to know that our hard work has not gone unnoticed and at the least someone appreciate and at the same time, be inspired to do more. Even the end product is nowhere near a polished material, through constant communication and appreciation....the end product might be even BETTER than planned. I have had my fair share of bad bosses. Trust me I do. There are some of them who simply goes around shooting their gums as though I am in office and not doing anything but on facebook. Spot on actually. I am on facebook like maybe 40% of my time in office. Hahahha! BUT, hear me out. At the end of the day, I had my work done. Unlike some others who spent 90% time in office but have so many unfinished assignments. This is not busy, this is simply lazy. Yeahh, I hit the nail right on the head. The corporate world is the very environment that I would gladly jump ship. Yes. I miss being on the Monday to Friday routine. Office is particularly closed on weekends. Everything is done in a smooth crisp and FAST way. I love a fast working environment. I cherish that adrenalin rush. I would love to return back to this world. Gimme time. I will make my return...I promise. Hee. Right, I am very hungry now. Hmmm. Shall go and find food for this rumbling tummy. I hope all of you had an awesome AWESOME monday. Take care peeps! Stay classy! xoxo, AJ Thank you so much for reading you all. And since you are already down here, PLEASE VOTE for who do you prefer to listen to for next month. Aite?? Mucho loves! Thursday, January 7, 2010 @ 11:49 PM
Emotional Check Typing on total emotional overdrive is a bad thing. In fact, when you are on tha mode, if possible, stay away from anyone whom you love. You might endup saying things which flicked that "pissed off" button "on" in them. Very very dangerous to do so. Yes? We are all humans. Very much weak and strong in our own unique ways. As for me, the way I handle my emotions, I'll give a 6 out of 10. I have the ability to switch off my feelings. This has been done before. Right after I broke up four years ago, I pretty much switched my heart off. It is practically on hibernate mode as it keeps my body and mind flowing, just to run the daily routine stuffs. But to go the extra activities, say.....woo a lady? Nahhh, it doesn't happen. So basically, I think I switched off mine longer that I had planned. And yes, right now, it has backfire on me. Failing to fall in love, or even see who was in love with me was the story of my life. I once did not realise that a girl was in love with me, until she told me so. By the time she told me, she had already moved on as she thought I was not interested. Bahhhhh. My bad. I am indeed a sucker for this game of love aren't I? Very very bad. But I am not going to talk about love tonight. Nor whine and cry over it. I believe in ALLAH and in myself that if there is a partner, she will come. It is all a matter of time. And if she isn't here on Earth, maybe I can see her in "jannah". Now that will be for an eternity. I would much prefer that. So yes, I am a much more happier man tonight, than the previous night. =) I have not had my dinner yet and I feel my tummy having an early start to Royal Rumble. Yikes! Better go have something before I go kapoot. Have a good night to all! I'll leave ya with pictures from my visit to the National Museum with Andi and family. Enjoy & Stay classy Singapore!! xoxo & XO, AJ  Thank you so much for reading you all. And since you are already down here, PLEASE VOTE for who do you prefer to listen to for next month. Aite?? Mucho loves! @ 12:01 AM
Forgotten Goshh...I just realised how much I truly missed showering someone with all the love that I can afford to give. I really mean that. I miss that warm fuzzy feeling inside of me. How I wish GOD can come down and personally tell me where have I gone wrong to deserve my bitter loneliness. I really want to request for an explaination. Where is the justice?? A guy who drinks, womanise, doesn't do solat; basically a bad example of a muslim, can have the most perfect of woman in his arm to be called wife, girlfriend or whatever. And then there's me. I mean, I am not the best example of a muslim of course, but I do my solat and avoid drinks which is afterall HARAM. So here I am, standing alone. Not having someone, is not fun ok. Put yourself in my position where you have not feel the passion of love for almost 4 years. So, should I start drinking and committing sins to get myself love? Does it work that way? Maybe women doesn't love a religious man. Or doesn't love a man who does not commit sins at the very least? Maybe they want those dangerous, bad boys huh. Cause bad boys brings in the fun and edgy-ness of life. True?? If this goes on, I'll prolly lose my faith. Subhanallah. I will try my best to be strong. But I am human, a soul who like others, need that human touch. I wish I was a robot, where I can't feel. But too bad. When ALLAH created me, HE might have forgotten that I was one of his human creation. And thus, forgetting my partner. That's the only thing I can think of. ALL I ASK FOR IS TO LOVE. THAT'S ALL. I don't mind staying in a one room flat and eat porridge everyday. Haaaa....it is one of those nights... xoxo, AJ Thank you so much for reading you all. And since you are already down here, PLEASE VOTE for who do you prefer to listen to for next month. Aite?? Mucho loves! Monday, January 4, 2010 @ 10:48 PM
Degree and above = NATO Do highly qualified people think the world of themselves?? I am referring to your degree and above qualifications here. Yes. I would like to tackle this issue tonight and lay down to rest the fact that majority of these A* minds are simply arrogant, bossy and downright stupid. I don't need to go far to prove my point. I look around me everyday, well....almost, and I see these breed. Always in their own perfect amazing little world. Act as if the entire organization is beneath their feet while their fingers outreached the sky. While doing so, they left their brain in their ass. That is what I think about them. Have you all realise that these NATO (No Action Talk Only) kind of people have degree and above? I guess staying in school has cause an impairment of logical thinking. Many a times, we see the lower ranked people run the whole show. While these "big guns" sits in their comfy chair with one feet up on the thigh and simply sign the whatever mudpie documents and do nothing. At the end of the day, the credits will fall to who else but the lad him/herself. Where is the recognition for the ones who toiled, sweat and did the dirty work? Gone down the drain I believe. Here's the deal... The people who does these "dirty work" are in fact, the heart and soul of the whole say project. Coordination, planning and execution to timely perfection are basically done by the underlings. Some argue and said, "that's what they are here for. they are paid." I would not argue with that. But notice that I am not complaining about minions having to overwork. No. Here is my point. High flyers only know how to talk big but really, at the end of the day...they are stupid, obnoxious and stupid (did I mentioned that?). They seems to know exactly how many stars are there in the galaxy just by using a calculator and multiplying the length and breadth and whatever necessary. ASS. Now that is a new verb for smart. The fact that they keep asking one to do work and yet they themselves are the evil essence of laziness and piggy, just simple sparks me off. I have my fair share of run-ins with them. And when I say run-ins, I mean I hit a brick wall hard. Because no matter how many angles you try to see the way they work, it's a clear cut failure. On paper they are head and shoulders above the rest of the field, but in terms of going to war....would you take a bachelor holder with captain rank and ZILT experience in weapons, or settle with a corporal whose experience with weapons goes way pass say 5 years? Now....I honestly believe that if you are currently in the best state of mind and recovered from those alcohol intake which destroys your kidney liver intestines, lungs hear and all organs during countdown, you would choose mr corporal right there. It is not rocket science ok. 1 + 1 does NOT equal 3. Here is my suggestion. Ace people should just shut up and only talk when they are talked to. They should serve only as a puppet to those who works under him. Trust me, things would be way much easier. Signatures, salary, clearance....ahhh then they are allow leverage. But that depend if they are talk to. Else, shut up. Did I make my points clear? Okay now I shall sleep. And by the way, not ALL highly educated peeps are asswipes. I am just saying majority. I do have friends who has a doctorate, but yet humble to the very ground that we walked on. I am very proud to have this kind of individual, as a friend. Have a good night peeps! xoxo, AJ Thank you so much for reading you all. And since you are already down here, PLEASE VOTE for who do you prefer to listen to for next month. Aite?? Mucho loves! Saturday, January 2, 2010 @ 9:37 PM
Alcohol and Proud Of It? We have now reached the second day of the new decade. It wasn't long ago that majority of you people were ushering the end of 2009 and welcoming the dawn of 2010, and now it is already into its' second and soon to be third? Sheeesh! Talk about how time flies huh. The more we realise that time isn't something we can claim, the more idle we get towards it. Come, I'll explain myself... Ya see, when people says that they do not have time to do certain things, in my opinion, it is utter laziness. Yes. Let me spell it out for you. L-A-Z-Y. Why didn't they have time? It is because they are out there busy wasting it! C'mon...let us all be realistic here ok. How many times have we forgo our prayers with the reason "no time"? Now, are you feeling guilty? Ok one more...why is there more people partying rather than giving back to society and then the excuse of "no time" being decked out. Ask yourself this people. After all of you are done with your parties, sober up from all that alcohol that you gulped, THINK. In what sense can you be a better man rather than spend your money, spoiling your kidneys, increasing your sins with all that is considered "haram"? Preachy am I? YES. And that is because I for once, do give a damn about our younger generations. Sooner or later, the future breed would not be able to even say "assalamualaikum". That IS the harsh truth of things. Posing with bottles of alcohol, which part of it is cool? It just makes one look bad...like trying so hard to look like a rockstar that I must say. I deemed these kind of people pathetic. What is even worst, is that they are no where near high rollers. What? You are earning six figure annual salary kinda fella? And if you do, wouldn't it be BETTER if you donate those amount you spent on alcohol to homes? There are people out there who needs help, who lives with scraps from the streets and yet they remember GOD. While the rich ones, forget where their feet is standing on. It is pretty much a shame. Therefore I am appealing to each and everyone of you young souls out there, repent. Do not wait for something bad to happen and then you will start going on with the "if only" chants. Your words will be on mute mode. I probably have made a dozen of enemies by now, but who cares. I stand by my principles. I got word that I need to come to work tomorrow. It is a freaking Sunday and WORK?! Geez. These 4 letters are the last thing I think about when Sunday makes an appearance. Crap. Only nutcase works on a Sunday. Baboon. I still wanna go zoo! Who is willing to tdo the honors huh? Beep me! Goodnight earth! Stay classy! xoxo & XO, AJ Thank you so much for reading you all. And since you are already down here, PLEASE VOTE for who do you prefer to listen to for next month. Aite?? Mucho loves! |