the writer


Hi, my name is AJ Junior. Just AJ will do. I am a skinny individual with the heart of a lion and wittines of a mouse. I have THE most loving fiancee EVER! I love making friends, so why not facebook me and be my friend. =)



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At times, I don't need these things anymore, so I am selling them off at reasonable prices. =)


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Saturday, October 3, 2009 @ 2:26 AM
Sleepless

When I get sleepless nights, I tend to think alot. You know, just simply thinking about every single things which makes me, me. From friends, to the things I did, to the words I say, how I act, so on and so forth. It is hard to put into words what I am trying to portray. Feelings has never been a good synchronise partner with words. But when it does, most of the time they are lies. Agreed? I bet most of you do.

Time and time again I am thinking, when will my time be. When will my time to come home from work with a wife waiting at home. Kids to hug at the door. Things like these made me wonder alot about my future. Will I EVER get to experience these? Or will I simply resign to the fact that I would not have the luxury of it all. Geeez.

At times, I just wish I have someone to talk to. Bestest person would be bestie Andi of course....but as of late, I try not to bother the boy too much. Cause he himself has his own family to worry about and I would feel like I am being a burden by sharing. The other few friends of mine are somewhat not interested. I realise people come to me, ONLY when there's an agenda. Example? Financial issues or simply says, wanna borrow money. Yeahhh. That's when I will get text messages, without even bother to ask how am I doing. I don't mind helping, but I would really appreciate if you ask about my welfare. Kinda like you show you care right?

I understand I may sound picky, whiny and what nots but I can't help it. My life as it is, has gone into routine mood. I don't understand why have I always been the one making the move to catch up. Seems to me that I am the only bothered to keep friendship alive. Or maybe I am just borned to be alone...

Ouh well, it is already a weekend. No plans with anyone. Maybe I will be out alone. Goodnight world!

xoxo,
AJ


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