the writer


Hi, my name is AJ Junior. Just AJ will do. I am a skinny individual with the heart of a lion and wittines of a mouse. I have THE most loving fiancee EVER! I love making friends, so why not facebook me and be my friend. =)



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sellout

At times, I don't need these things anymore, so I am selling them off at reasonable prices. =)


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Monday, March 2, 2009 @ 11:24 PM
Out & Down

The thought of going interview tomorrow is making me squirm in my abdomen. I am exhausted. I am really honestly out of breathe and lethargic to the point of not wanting to do anything. Giving up is something that has pondered carelessly in my overworked precarious mind. I do not enjoy having that mindset, but I can't help it. It is simply so tough out there. I sat down everyday, thinking about this. I would not deny that I am feeling down and out as of late.

I feel rather indifferent. Jobhunting have been sucky. I've put in tonnes of efforts. I've gone beyond my limits. I managed to get jobs for some friends but none for myself. Then there's the love part. This I know, may sound whiny and rather pathetic. I have always long for someone to cherish, to laugh with and to irritate. The gaps between my fingers has not been filled by someone else's. Everytime I think I like someone, some stuffs happen which made my head tilt south.

Haaaa...this is very unecessary. But I simply need an avenue to pour out my heart and soul, my inner thoughts. Voicing out is like shouting beneath the water. No one will bother to stop, turn and look at you. Probably, I have always been seen as the guy who is the BEST person to talk to when problems arises, when mood swings take a dip, when boredom strike, etc. And when everything is back to normal or in tip top condition, who is AJ?

Yeahh, it is a sad case if you asked me. There are a few people in my life who has been that pillar for me. 3 girls, 3 boys. I don't like being moody. I know very well that it is not me. But life is a roller coaster I suppose. You have the highs and lows and right now, I feel like I'm in that slump that is simply being a realistic nightmare. I quiver when I think about my future. Hmmm...I'll better be in my bed now. Hopefully tomorrow is another new day. A better one. Take care darlings...

xoxo,
AJ


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