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Hi, my name is AJ Junior. Just AJ will do. I am a skinny individual with the heart of a lion and wittines of a mouse. I have THE most loving fiancee EVER! I love making friends, so why not facebook me and be my friend. =)



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Friday, January 30, 2009 @ 7:51 PM
The One, Tell Me How??

Heloo dere darlings! It's a frideedaideedaidee day! I knoww it's that time again where it's time for the shirt and blouse to be left in the wardrobe and your tanks and minis to go out and play. Yeappie2! Run-in to the weekends. What's the plan hunneys?? Any chance of any of you might be hooking up with an unexpected someone? Probably cupid has shot more arrows of his as valentine's day draws nearer.

Talking 'bout valentine...it's been two and make it 3 this year that I am not celebrating valentine with a certain someone. Not that I see it as important but uhhm the fact that 2 years of not saying "I love you" and honestly mean it to someone, damn. I choose to think that I am a very sad example of an unwanted soul ya know. Hahaha! Okay okay, honestly...I am clueless. I mean, maybe it is my fault afterall. Ya know, me being lazee to "find" a girlfriend. But how do you exactly "find" a girlfriend??

Do you go onto friendster/myspace/facebook "search" function and start from there?? Or do you put on that ultra thick layer of skin on your face and asked for numbers on someone who caught your eyes? What? How? Who? Urgh...if knowing if THAT person is the one for you thru' spider sense, things would be bloody easy you know. Ministry won't need to worry about divorce issues. Bahhhh. I dare to say that I LIKE someone but thus far, I've NEVER taken that like into another level of emotion. The thoughts of it, is simply scary ok. Nyehh.

Maybe what I need is a protection. From what? I have no idea. But I know from my previous relationship, that I was very VERY amazingly SUPER gullible, vulnerable, forgiving, can I say stupid(?), generous, spare no thoughts of myself, understanding(in a dumb way) and yeah...look at where all that brings me to. I wasn't being held at gunpoint to acquire all the above mentioned factors but I thought that being what I was back then, was the perfect example of a good boyfriend. Now that I am recalling whatever I did, I feel very disgusted and pitiful for myself can? Hahaha!! I ought to be laughed at. C'mon go ahead! Hhehehhee!!

Anyways, we succumbed to mistakes when we don't have experience in things that we deal with. In my instance, the previous relationship was the first "real" boyfriend girlfriend issue for me. The kinky affairs before that end up nowhere you can call a relationship so you can't count those in ok. Be fair to me!! Hehehe! So yeah, maybe like I mentioned, lack of experience which drove me to go to desperate lengths just to keep the relationship going. Yeah yeah yeah I was like that desperado kid ya know. Very kental. Bleurgh. What's the english word for kental huh??

So when I go to desperate lengths and measures, I ended up selling off my pride, my dignity and most importantly, myself. It's like I sold my soul to the devil at the crossroad. Then I'll have to wait 10 years for the hellhound to come by, claiming their share of the deal. Urgh. Too much Supernatural already. Talkin bout which, I'm now watching episode 13 of season 4. I feel like I am the brother of Sam and Dean Winchester already. How??

Eyh! I think I am out of context already. Geez. It starts with how do date....right? I think so. Nonetheless, that's what I am asking myself luh. 'Cause I asked Andi last time, and he said that he knew that his fiance, Shaikhah, is the one for him thru' her smile. If I'm not mistaken and I recalled properly, that's what he said uh. Sorry eh bro if you didn't say that, but but I am very sure you DID told me that. Heheheh!! If that's the case, then currently I am infatuated with a smile of an individual. Can ask my mom and dad go her place already?? Hahahha!

Alritey, before I carry on typing, which getting very much addictive already, I better checked on outta here. Prolly hangout with Nas on I'll just laze with my DVD watching Star Wars: The Clone Wars, the animated series. Yeay! So hunney, sayangs, darlings babies, you all have a wonderful weekend and spread the love and remember, always remember the rubber if ur goin kinky mode. Kekekeke!! You know you love me...

xoxo,
AJ

PS: Snapshots from previous outing with Andi & Nas...






























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