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Hi, my name is AJ Junior. Just AJ will do. I am a skinny individual with the heart of a lion and wittines of a mouse. I have THE most loving fiancee EVER! I love making friends, so why not facebook me and be my friend. =)



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Saturday, December 13, 2008 @ 2:52 AM
Unknown Unsolved Silent Hysteria

I've been keeping alot of cooped up emotion slash energy deep within me. It's really an unexplainable feeling but it kinda like you need to just blurt it out to someone but at the same time you just can't do that. Of course there are friends around me who cares but when it comes down to this, I prefer to go under the radar and probably just disappear. It is somewhat a skill which I had perfectly master since mid last year.

Yet going down that road again just brings you back to square one. Who would want that, you fill me in will ya?

Indeed at this junction of time,believe me; I am trying my utmost best to phrase every word in every sentences in every paragraph so that this does not seem like your conventional teenage angst post who feels that the entire universe is ushering bullets in their direction. No. If I wanted that, I would have done it 300++ posts before.

There are alot of questions but where do I begin? Why am I feeling this tiny little sensation but yet a gruelling churning feeling in the stomach? I've had THIS before and lemme tell you, the aftermath is really really horrible. It seems like you know things but the more you think you know about stuffs, the more you uncover the unknown and then you realised that what you know is just the tip of the iceberg.

Bothering my close ones like Andi and Lily, isn't one of my options. At times, your life your decision and your actions, is your responsibility. Bringing others into your problems may not be the best solution.

Yes yes it is true that I've been around the blocks listening to everyone's problems. And frankly speaking, c'mon....I have got to be proud of myself for being able to be a friend who listens and tried to help, right? Hehe! Obviously, making someone smile, giving hope and making them think that they aren't the only ones feeling the hurt, makes me happy. Really, it does.

But uhmm let's face it, even a hero falls flats on his face. Or butt. Hehehe!

I've typed this much and I've yet to know, WHAT is bothering me sooo much in this wee hours of Saturday morning. Urgghh!! Maybe, just maybe, IF I can figure it out, I'll lay down every single details of my messed up chest anatomy. I think I need Sentosa real bad. I've always said it...nature always have her ways of healing your inner soul. Heee.

Well, forgive me if this seems to be a very draggy post but I've just got to write it down somewhere. I love you all. I do. You stay safe and cheerful now. Keep that smile and trust me, you'll do just fine thru the weekends. Spread the love on my behalf will ya? And VOTE for your faves honey! Hehehe!!

xoxo,
AJ


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