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Hi, my name is AJ Junior. Just AJ will do. I am a skinny individual with the heart of a lion and wittines of a mouse. I have THE most loving fiancee EVER! I love making friends, so why not facebook me and be my friend. =)



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Tuesday, December 11, 2007 @ 1:39 AM
A Note


No matter what, I'll be back on my 2 feet

Ouh boy ouh boy ouh boy. This is what I am MOST afraid of you know. Emotional stress or turmoil or whatever you call it. It's all setting in like like a rush of blood to the brain! Really. And I'm seriously no good when playing all these matters of the heart. Nyehhh.

Anyway, this goes out to the beloved ex-gf Fazzy. Yes I'm saying this to you. There was no errmm let's say.....intention of not making you feel important. Just that we hardly contact anymore you see. 'Cos by the time I reached home, you're asleep. And when you're up awake I'll be asleep and by noon I'm off to work. Don't mention my off days, 'cos more or less things are laid out as planned few days back.

Don't get the thought of I was not thinking of you or not bothered about you anymore. No you got me all misunderstood. Yes I dare says it's a misunderstanding. Of cos you will ALWAYS be that someone special in my life as long as I live. For you have made such an impact you see. But to end the friendship? Jeeeeez.

I understand that you don't love me and the fact that you have a boyfriend. Ahuh. So why end the friendship whereby by going on there's no harm cause. It's not as if I'm going to purposely ruin a beautiful relationship you're having with him. Yeah...I know what type of person I am and what I am capable of. I could have destroyed everything with just my mouth and I hold lots of evidence on me. BUT I respect you and your decision lady. Yeah I endured all the heartwrench all those months scarred in me.

You claim that I don't know about you thinking about me. How does you do NOT know what I went through since the month of april until the day we seperated sounds huh? I was practically devastated, my heart my life was literally smashed to pieces. You made a fool outof my trust for you. Yeahh I still remember. Don't you know how being lied and being dumped feels like?

The answer well...is amazingly no. You were never dumped. You were never betrayed. So practically you don't know the feeling how the words "I wanna break up with you" really feels. Yes most prolly HE has said that to you but deep down you know he doesn't mean it at all but on my end, it means really breaking up. Ahuh.

Life really has no more meaning then for me. It was all hopes and wishes or even DREAMS came crashing and reality drops by to say "Hey AJ you're dumped, and now you're useless". Yeahh it hit me like THAT you see. Like a steel baseball bat being swung THERE right smack on your chest and you lie there groaning in pain and then screaming in silence. Haaaaa.

So Fazzy. What I'm trying to say is I am NOT taking revenge. I'm merely going life as per normal single boy does. Goes out date. With friends. I mean I care for all my friends. And I don't call them all like day in and day out neither do I message everyday. So you see here buddy, frankly saying, when you sent in that text message with the words "goodbye", "I hate you", "I don't need a friend like you", it really does hurt me alot.

But over on my end, if I were to really on insist trying to be someone in your life and you don't want my existence, then I really got no say you see. 'Cos it's your life, and you decide on who stays and who goes. If you insist on me going, I guess I have to accept it, It IS a bitter taste in the mouth, no qualms about that. I'm going to miss you. But hey, all along I've been missing you. Just that I never got the time to show. What I'm saying is true. You can say it's all bullshit or lies or whatever you wanna termed it. Your call sweetheart. Till then...

It's been a great 4 years...


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