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Hi, my name is AJ Junior. Just AJ will do. I am a skinny individual with the heart of a lion and wittines of a mouse. I have THE most loving fiancee EVER! I love making friends, so why not facebook me and be my friend. =)



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Monday, November 12, 2007 @ 2:09 AM
A Fight I'm Starting...

I wonder, when will the time/date be...when I can truly be with that someone u cherish and love. It's awfully painful to look into the mirror and saying "one day". Not that I am impatient and desperate to be in love BUT....

Ouh well. What's the use right? Even when I say to a certain someone I love you, there's no I love you too back. It's even painful to see that someone holding the other half's hand. I really don't get all this at all.

How do you show and prove love to someone who already have a gf/bf? PLUS, when you show love, you REALLY want to show that full love and affection right. Having to hide and lie....jeez. Why be in a relationship then in the first place?

And why go and ramble about things I didn't do? Why not ramble on things I have done instead? The sacrifices I've put myself thru', the tears I've fell, the heartache and the whole emotional turmoil. Try putting yourself in my shoes. TRY.

I have a choice 5 months ago. And I'm still somehow someway sticking by that choice. Now I'm being pointed fingers at and accused? Good lord what mess have I got myself into this time?! I'm just too drained.

At work, I need to deal with customers. You get scolded. You got shouted at. There's so much emotional thingy. And then you're faced with off the work emotional trauma.

Fine I'll show commitment from today onwards. I don't give a damn about what's going to happen. So be it. Commitment and prove that's being wished for, it's granted. I'm not going to sit down and allow something that I want, be gone just like that. I guess I'm gonna have to fight for it. And hell...I'm one gem of a fighter when it comes to love.

The only he got you, is because I let it happen. Hah.

PS: Get well soon Fazzy!


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