the writer Hi, my name is AJ Junior. Just AJ will do. I am a skinny individual with the heart of a lion and wittines of a mouse. I have THE most loving fiancee EVER! I love making friends, so why not facebook me and be my friend. =) current play Class 95FM sellout gossips ![]() dearest beloved friends archives September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 today's visits |
Monday, November 12, 2007 @ 2:09 AM
A Fight I'm Starting... I wonder, when will the time/date be...when I can truly be with that someone u cherish and love. It's awfully painful to look into the mirror and saying "one day". Not that I am impatient and desperate to be in love BUT.... Ouh well. What's the use right? Even when I say to a certain someone I love you, there's no I love you too back. It's even painful to see that someone holding the other half's hand. I really don't get all this at all. How do you show and prove love to someone who already have a gf/bf? PLUS, when you show love, you REALLY want to show that full love and affection right. Having to hide and lie....jeez. Why be in a relationship then in the first place? And why go and ramble about things I didn't do? Why not ramble on things I have done instead? The sacrifices I've put myself thru', the tears I've fell, the heartache and the whole emotional turmoil. Try putting yourself in my shoes. TRY. I have a choice 5 months ago. And I'm still somehow someway sticking by that choice. Now I'm being pointed fingers at and accused? Good lord what mess have I got myself into this time?! I'm just too drained. At work, I need to deal with customers. You get scolded. You got shouted at. There's so much emotional thingy. And then you're faced with off the work emotional trauma. Fine I'll show commitment from today onwards. I don't give a damn about what's going to happen. So be it. Commitment and prove that's being wished for, it's granted. I'm not going to sit down and allow something that I want, be gone just like that. I guess I'm gonna have to fight for it. And hell...I'm one gem of a fighter when it comes to love. The only he got you, is because I let it happen. Hah. PS: Get well soon Fazzy! Thank you so much for reading you all. And since you are already down here, PLEASE VOTE for who do you prefer to listen to for next month. Aite?? Mucho loves! |